Dear members.
I often wonder: how is it possible to love Ateez so much?
Of course, I love you for your music, your performances, your individual talents.
I love you also, for who you are, your way of life, your different personalities, your kindness, your courage and your strength.
I love you for the love you share all together and the love you share with Atiny. And so the love you share with me.
But I can't really say: "I love them for that precise reason" because there are so many other reasons and also many reasons I don't even imagine.
Before I discovered Ateez, my life was empty.
I had received a late bipolar disorder diagnosis I have since my teenage years.
I couldn't accept the fact that I couldn't trust in my brain anymore.
I couldn't accept the fact that my own brain can betray me at any moment.
Many of my friends have walked away from me because of that.
I had no purpose, no dream anymore.
Mental health is always a scary topic and bipolar disorder is a poorly understood disease: people think they know what it’s but 90% of the time, they don't know it.
Whatever.
Discovering Ateez immediately inspired me, gave me the desire to create and to dream again. You filled my life with thousands of beautiful things.
Of course, sometimes,I wonder if doing things inspired by you and kind of "for you" is useful and if it’s enough to express my love for you all.
Sometimes I think that, because you will never receive my creations, then I'm losing my time.
And then, I remember that doing all these things is, at least doing something.
Doing all these things help me to get out of my bed and have a daily activity.
It means living, not just being alive.
And that's exactly the reason why I create all these things.
That's exactly what kind of feelings you brought into my life.
Desire. Goals. Expectations. Joy. Motivation.
This is why I love you the way I do: with no limits.
Credits Photo: Giorgio Giacomuzzo
www.giorgiogiacomuzzo.com
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