At a time when my life was empty.
Non more dreams, no more purpose.
When they entered my life, they rushed everything, they brought joy, Love, sweetness, hope, will, the desire to live, the desire to dream... and a bit of mess 🤣.
So yes, today, some people may have the impression that I live only for them but in reality, I live because to them.
Thanks to them, I dreamed again: I dream to see them in concert, to see them front row, to see them notice my sign at least once, that I can hear Sunrise and From on stage, to be able to get a fansign/ fancall. Just to be able to say, "Thank you for giving me a new life full of joy."
I started doing things "for them", even though I know they will never have/ see it. I write them letters that I might send one day, I make bracelets, dolls (soon...) that allow me to do activities.
Since I know them, I weave, I create, I invent fanfics by my own (Soon...), I write theories on their storyline, I sew, I paint, I work with wool, I pumice, I embroider.
I'm very busy now and my life is full of things now.
But I also fail and their songs, their videos live during those moments, allow me to start again, to persist and thanks to them, I finally succeed.
I also travel, I make projects, I meet Atinys, I open up to others.
I accept myself as I am, I accept my illness and I manage to live with it, because whatever happens, nothing is impossible and I am no longer alone.
Being a fan is not my reason to exist.
Being a fan doesn’t define me.
But being a fan is the reason that makes me move forward in my life, serenely.
Because, well, it’s just the Ateez effect ❤️.
I like them more than I should.I love them so much that I need to see them several times a day.I love them without even understanding why and how it is possible to love so much.
In fact, I am not even wondering.
I just love them with my all heart.
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